Heart Of The Reaper by Y.D. La Mar
General Genres & Darkness Level - Basic info & Content
Darkness Level 6
Gothic
Mythology
Pitch Black
Tropes & Triggers - Although I try my hardest not to include any spoilers, these tags may give away a little more of the story. If you don't want to risk the possibility of knowing a wee bit extra about the type of content and aren't too bothered anout exact tropes then don't click here 🙂
Abused Heroine
Alpha-Hole
Anti-Hero
Blood Play
Brutal Violence
Child Abuse
Demons
Emotionally Damaged Hero/Heroine
Forbidden
Fucked Up & Intense Mix of Emotions
Jealous/Possessive
Knife Play
New Adult
Non Consent/Rape
Obsessive/Possessive
Pitch Black
Super Disturbing
Darkness Level – 6 out of 6
My Rating is 5 Stars
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Blurb
My dark past was only a foreshadowing of my future.
Once an ordinary girl, my life was forever altered when those I trusted the most gave into their dark desires. I was cast into the underworld, but I didn’t belong there.
And he knew it.
The Reaper, the formidable ruler of this realm, spared me, sending me back to a human world I no longer recognized.
I should have been grateful, but instead, I found myself missing the one who cast me out. And I wasn’t the only one grappling with unexpected longing. The Reaper himself, against all reason, yearned for me. Consumed by this unfamiliar desire, he waged wars, devoured souls, and defied his nature, just to take a human form and win my heart.
But can a mortal woman truly love Death? And what happens when the heart I hold in my hands is the most dangerous thing of all?
My Review Of Heart Of The Reaper by Y.D. La Mar
Okay, first of all…brilliant intro to the book, lol!
This is how I knew it was gonna be great.
All the best ones have trigger warnings and this one is absolutely spot on.
Courtesy warning: This book may contain triggers for some. Triggers include but are not limited to non-con, unrequited family love, dub-con, knife play, suicidal ideation, depression, violence, blood play, BDSM, choking, biting, demons devouring human flesh, humans devouring demon flesh, themes of war and human trafficking, torture, themes that may be disturbing to some readers.
**if you cannot handle the darkness of unrequited family love in the beginning BUT want to read this story, please skip to Chapter 8. Feel free to message me about the summary of the beginning chapters BECAUSE IT IS RELEVANT TO THE STORY.**
AUTHOR’S NOTE: if you are expecting a hero to think or act human, you will be sorely disappointed. The hero of this book is unapologetically a reaper of souls.
It punches you right in the gut and shreds your heart at the same time. The pain I felt for this poor wee soul as she was growing up was intense.
So, now that you’ve read the above recommendation-I mean trigger warnings, let’s jump into the fucked up goodness!
REESE
The story starts with a very wee girl (around 11 or younger) and if you have problems with reading about child abuse then this is definitely not for you.
Her whole life, all be it a short one, has been a horrific kind of torture and the poor wee soul doesn’t even know it.
For her, it’s not unusual for her daddy hit her mummy.
Not unusual for daddy to hit her.
It’s not unusual for daddy to be drunk and scary.
And eventually, it’s not unusual for daddy to ‘tuck her in’ at night. (Did anyone else just burst into Tom Collins’ Not Unusual..?)
I’m going to share a couple of her thoughts with you here so fair warning it’s intense and devastating.
On days like this, I lock my doors in case Daddy feels like taking his anger out on me too. Age 11 Daddy’s attention makes me feel proud. But what he does to me in my bedroom makes me feel scared. I don’t understand why I feel that way at the same time. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I’m too scared to tell Mama. So I just stay quiet. Age 12 I knew Daddy was pretending to be asleep so I would let him do that to me. I don’t understand what’s going on. I wish my monster was here with me because I’m getting a little scared. Age 12
This kind of treatment goes on well into her mid to late teens and the only way her wee mind could deal with the abuse was to ‘log out’ so to speak.
She left the physical plain in her dreams and traveled to the spirit realm.
And that’s where she meets the reaper.
Her monster.
Now, most people would be terrified to come face to face with death but not Reese.
Nope, her whole life has been scary as fuck and this death guy..? Well, there’s something about him that draws her in and she just feels safe with him.
Even though he doesn’t utter a word.
Sadly for Reese, her father isn’t the only cunt who deserves the Lorraina Bobbit treatment.
Being as damaged as she is, she is vulnerable and a little different from the average teenager at school and kids pick up on that shit.
So on top of the horrific bullying, there’s a guy who takes it waaay too far.
Over the years her unusual relationship with the reaper grows stronger and as she matures her feelings…change slightly.
She wants more from him.
But things, of course, don’t go the way she wants.
BEHERRA
I kinda feel sorry for this guy sometimes, lol.
Here’s this wee lassie who keeps popping into his plane and she will not be deterred by his cold stare and stony silence.
She just keeps bletherin’ away at him completely oblivious to the fact that he’s the scariest thing in the world.
He’s the last thing people see before death and she runs up and tries to hug him.
I squeal and give him a big hug. I knew my monster would show up! Now I don’t have to be alone and scared anymore. He puts his hands on my shoulders and gently pushes me away. I know he gets a little weird with my touching, but I can’t help it. I’m a touchy person. I love hugs!
He’s equally as confused by his own reaction to her.
When they first meet she’s just a wee lassie who has quite obviously got some problems at home.
But he’s as drawn to her as she is to him.
I do not know what it is about this human girl, why I find myself in her presence frequently without the desire to pull her soul. I should just reap her essence and end her miserable life. But I can’t.
You know what else I like about him?
He feckin’ growls man!! And you all know I love a growly male 🙂
Anyway, against his will, he starts to develop feelings for her when as she ages.
He’s never experienced love, lust or jealousy before and to be honest some of the inner dialogue was amusing, which in itself is impressive because any author that can have you feeling distraught one chapter and then has you snickering in the next is a rare gem indeed.
So there are a lot of misunderstandings and unusual quirks and he tries so feckin’ hard not to feel anything. Just go on his way but…he just cann’y lol.
She frustrates the shit outta him and I love every second of it, lol.
DARK/SEX SCENES
So like I said there are so many complex emotions in this story and I feel like I should give you a glimpse of a couple of them.
The first scene below is DARK AF and has a massive !!**TRIGGER WARNING**!!
The second is sexy and hot AF because it’s his first time fucking!!
I don’t understand what’s going on, but about ten minutes after Daddy leaves, the man from downstairs comes up to my room. I’m scared, I don’t know this man. He’s wider than Daddy and it makes me feel more vulnerable. The man doesn’t say much, but he smiles a scary smile and turns me over onto my stomach. I remember what Daddy tells me about being quiet, and I try to stifle my screams and fear. The man takes his fingers and rubs Daddy’s cum into my butt, then sticks his dick in me without so much a word and I feel like I’m being torn in two. I’m caught by surprise and it’s a good thing my pillow is already stifling my screams because I don’t think I can keep quiet with what’s happening. He only pushes into my butt for about five minutes before he lets out a really nasty groan, calling me a “whore girl” and cums into me. When his dick dies down and slips out of me, he turns me around and tells me to make him hard again. I don’t know what he means, and he slaps me in the face, making me tear up. I cry out for Daddy, but he never answers my cries no matter how many times I say it. I tell myself that the faster I do what the man says, the faster he leaves. He shoves his soft dick into my mouth and I try my best to suck until he’s hard again, even though I want to gag and throw up all over it.
Scene 2
The shock of pleasure hits me like a ton of bricks. What is this then? What is happening? My body is moving out of some sort of ancient muscle memory with my thrusts, but when I look to where our bodies are united, I see that my little Reese is pushing back against me. Why does this feel so much better than my mere pounding? How does she do that? Her hips start to twist with her pushes, and I can feel my body tightening in tension as I watch her seductive dance. A memory sparks in my mind. This has happened before. This has happened before with Reese. Lost in the sensation of her movements, my hand caresses her neck, only to notice I do not see her hands. Where are her hands? Reese moans into the sheet as my eyes track her arm down in front of her body. What is this human female doing and why is her pussy pulsating on my cock? By the hellfires, what is this feeling? Reese gives a much deeper moan than I’ve ever heard come out of her at the same time her pussy seems to choke the life out of my phallus. A lightning strike of pleasure shoots down my back as my climax brings me to my damn knees, if I wasn’t there already. The feeling of my cock releasing its essence into her does something I never thought about before. It calms me. What I took as weakness before was actually the feeling of calm and serenity. I was a fool to think Reese would ever have nefarious plans for me. But I will never let her know this, she may use it against me.
Final thoughts on HEART OF THE REAPER by Y.D. Lamar.
So, this story is dark AF, hot AF and intense AF with just the right amount of humour. Well, I say that but quite often the things I find amusing, other people are like “…why you laughing..?” with a horrified look on their faces so maybe it’s just me.
But if you’re in the Facebook group or following my reviews then there’s a chance you have a similar love of fucked up shit 🙂
5 Stars
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